It is hard to explain what it does to me knowing there is a little boy laying in a hospital bed in another state wondering why God won't show up for him. As I ponder my own day-to-day challenges and what it means to walk through this life with integrity and enough backbone to say I did my best on any given day...when I think of Tyler he reminds me that I really shouldn't snivel one bit. He reminds me to focus on what is important to me and to not waste a minute.
Tyler is the grandson of a childhood friend of mine. I see the updates of his distraught mother and his aunties on Facebook and I wonder why this his happening to this young soul. He has cancer and his battle is horrific. He doesn't have a choice. He is going to see this illness through one way or another. There are more children like him...oh I wish it weren't so. It humbles me to the point of being yet again "Oft Made to Wonder."
I've lived long enough to believe in an unseen force that comes to our aide and acts as a companion to us on this journey. I have also lived long enough to not have a clue about what is really going on. In cases like the suffering children of our world I can only hope they were placed on this planet to teach us a humbler and more compassionate walk. These little angels are our teachers and oh how I love them.
Tyler's journey has moved me to consider my own life and what it means to be a mother, wife and someone who wants health, prosperity and a deeper spiritual path for myself and also for my loved ones. I'm sure this is what Tyler's parents want too. But today I would say that a healthy and happy little boy is on the top of that list. If I could put myself in their place for one minute...try as I may...my mind can only consider their grasping at hope and mercy and relief. These pleas must be the very breath they are breathing. The agony of unanswered prayers yet small graces that keep hope alive through the eyes of love seem like the order of each day. Honestly, this journey is so much more than I can imagine.
Thank you Tyler for opening my eyes a little wider and helping me put my own daily challenges and relationships in a light that is true. I for one am daily in awe of you and although you don't know me, you have impacted my life for the better.
Thank you Tyler, for being one of my heroes. May all the angels assist you on your journey.